I’ll be closing down my fansites/screenapping sites. I’m not sure which ones yet – I kinda want to close down all of them, really.
Reasons I won’t go into here, and also because they’re taking much of my energy (I’m a spoonie and have been for a few years now) and I feel like I want to try and use what energy I have for more creative pursuits such as writing fanfic and making fanart and non-Internet related creative stuff. Fansites are like a work obligation – I know people want and expect updates often and regularly and I feel like I must do that first before anything else or I’ll feel quilty – but then I don’t have any energy left for creative things. I still love doing fansites but I miss being able to do creative things terribly, and that dissatisfaction is bugging me. I kind of want the feeling of not having obligations to update and monitor sites – even if there’s nothing to update with, there’s always the change that the server will blow up or database problems or hacking or whatever. So while most of the time everything goes smoothy and doesn’t require action, it’s always in the back of my mind that anything and everything could blow up any minute. I can’t remember what not-worrying-about-that feels like.
