Sep 20, 2022
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The Friday Five for September 16 2022

The Friday Five for September 16 2022

Better late than never! Answers to last Friday’s questions @ Livejournal.

1. Do you tend to remember book titles or authors the most?

Authors! When I read a book from a new-to-me author and like it a lot, I make a point to check out their other books. Just this summer I’ve had a lot of trouble with as an example, Anna Jansson’s Marian Wern books because I can’t remember which ones I’d already read from the titles alone, or even the synopsis. I haven’t been reading her books for about 6 years, and can’t remember whether I was all caught up when I stopped reading her. Also, when I read many books by the same author in a short amount of time the stories blur together and I can’t remember which title was which story. But I never really forget an author, they just get dropped or put on back burner if I get disappointed with their new stuff, or they don’t publish new stuff. But I never really forget an author.

2. Do you play any memory games to try and improve your memory?

Nope!

3. What is the very first movie you remember seeing in a movie theatre?

<em>Greystoke: The Legend of Tarzan, Lord of the Apes</em> (1984) with Andie MacDowell and Christopher Lambert. It’s also the first movie I remember wanting to go see a second time but my Mom and Dad said no. I was 10 when it came on in the theatres and my weekly allowance wasn’t enough to pay for the ticket myself.

4. What sense do you tend to rely upon the most?

Sight, no doubt!

5. When was the last time you felt lonely and what made you feel better?

I’m not sure I ever have. I live alone (I just realized I’ve lived alone exactly 30 years this fall! Since I moved out to study library sciences at 17.) but I can’t remember ever truly feeling lonely. It’s true that sometimes I wish I had someone to share a bad thing or a happy thing with, or take care of half the financial burden on me, or to share a remark about some minor thing happy or otherwise but that’s too little/minor/transitory to make a phonecall/e-mail about it… but that’s it. I’ve often read up about how feeling lonely is for other people and it never matches with my feelings.

The closest I remember ever getting to feeling lonely was during those recesses in school when my best friend’s class (we were in different classes, but had about half our classes together due to how the two classes were divided and joined for certain subjects) had already gone home, or did the last two hours back-to-back in order to be released home a little earlier. But that was partly because we were teased (read: bullied) usually by the high schoolers sometimes (probably not even weekly but still, it wasn’t a nice experience), and it felt safer and nicer when there were two of us on the recess. So some of it was a low level fear instead of loneliness.



Sep 20, 2022
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Random TV Thoughts: The Lazarus Project, House of the Dragon, The Rings of Power

Random TV Thoughts: The Lazarus Project, House of the Dragon, The Rings of Power

Random TV Thoughts: The Lazarus Project, House of the Dragon and The Rings of Power behind the cut…

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Sep 12, 2022
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Bad News & Good News

Bad News & Good News

One bad news and one good news today:

Bad news – Mom’s hip displaced again today again 😞 Mom’s SO just called me, she’s in the hospital right now.  She had a hip replacement surgery about 1,5 years ago, and in last May it happened the first time. And now a second time 🤕 This isn’t a surprise just a disappointment; they warned her that it could happen again, and that it happens easier when it’s once happened already. They also said in May that if it happens again Mom will have a new surgery to try and fix it. So that looks likely now. And her other hip is also getting bad enough that that too needs replacement surgery sooner rather than later. Fuck frail human bodies!

Good news – the judge approved my weak-adoption-to-strong-adoption application! 💖 So now my legal status is what we’ve always thought it to be! 💖😊 I’m so happy (and stunned) it took less than a month 💖💖💖 from the date when I delivered all the necessary papers to the court to get it processed! I thought it would take months because so much is made of the courts being backlogged badly. This doesn’t help with the “heir of the biological father” thing, but now I can’t inherit my bio mother and she (or my bio family in general) can’t inherit me automatically 😊



Sep 9, 2022
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4th COVID-19 Vaccine

4th COVID-19 Vaccine

Got my 4th COVID-19 vaccine yesterday! Finally! Felt like THL sure did sat on it this time for my medical risk group despite the number of cases sky-rocketing during the summer 😯 and despite saying that the protection against serious disease only lasts a few months. At one point they said Finland would wait for the updated vaccines before starting the 4th round except for the worst medical risk group. Only thing was that at the time it wasn’t even known when those vaccines would be approved for EU and then for Finland, so there was an out-cry that it might be November/December by then and much too late for the autumn COVID-19 cases increase and THL changed their stance. Luckily. 

I got my 3rd vaccine in early December so I’ve been feeling more or less in danger all through the summer. Avoided crowds and kept safe distance from other people because of that, while still trying not to become a hermit.

So far the jab site is slightly red and the arm muscle is a little sore, but not nearly as bad as the previous times. Yesterday I suddenly got a worsening headache 1,5 hours after the jab, and I think it’s because of the vaccine. It came on much faster than my migraine usually does, and responded better to the headache meds. So I’m thinking it was a vaccine side effect, but can’t really be sure.

I don’t get it – the authorities and politicians handled the first two years of the pandemic so well, why has this year been so bad and the attitude even by the authorities seems to be that it’s over even though the hospital system is suffering due chronic under-funding and under-staffing of nurses and devalue of nurses’ jobs? As if suddenly COVID-19 isn’t putting more pressure than normal on the system that was already cracking under the weight of the pressure long before COVID-19 came along? Why add to that by risking having even more patients because they’re in risk for serious disease and complications and that then happening by not vaccinating them if the powers that be themselves admit that the vaccines prevents deaths and long intensive care stays or even hospital stays altogether? I trust science and doctors and tend to believe that organizations like THL does what is best for the nation, but sometimes it’s very hard.



Sep 9, 2022
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The Friday Five for 9 September 2022

Answers to today’s question at thefridayfive @ Dreamwidth

1. What is the last song/bit of music you heard?

I haven’t listened to “music” music this week and can’t remember. I have been watching various tv episodes though, so score from them, I guess, if that counts. But nothing that stands out. Although Shetland’s theme music is great.

2. What is the song you can’t get enough of right now?

There’s none such song right now! My head is hurting bad enough that I need silence.

3. What song/band did you just discover and think are great?

Haven’t discovered new obsession music in a few months.

4. Do you listen to the same song over and over on repeat? Why?

Oh yes, it’s like one of my two main modes of listening to music – the other being listening to a selection to music on repeat. Because the pieces get stuck in my head, and/or I love them so much that I can’t get enough.

5. Do you make music, or do you want to?

Nope, for the first.

I’d like to be able to maybe play something, on a violin or a piano, but it’s one of those fleeting thoughts of “wouldn’t it be nice” and then promptly forget all about it things.

I’ve never gotten to play an actual instrument so I don’t know if I’d actually like it. In school when we were supposed to get to learn play some basics – we weren’t allowed to because the instruments were too precious for us mundanes to play music with – only the pupils in the choir/orchestra were allowed to touch them. Yeah, I didn’t like my music teacher. She was also supposed to be the teacher for ET (ethics, for those of us who didn’t belong to Church) but more often than not she forgot the ET lessons and then we’d go looking for her and find her conducting extra rehearsals with the choir and the orchestra. Looking back, our parents should have escalated this to the principal but for some reason that never happened, probably because only 2-4 pupils attended the ET lessons depending on the year. We were an afterthough most of the time even to the school bureaucracy. At the time I didn’t really care (I hated school – fewer lessons were great in my book!) and because I had zero liking or respect for this particular teacher, seeing her face less was a huge plus as far as I was concerned. But looking back, it’s clear that she didn’t put any value on anyone who wasn’t into singing, music and prefereably was musically gifted… and that just pisses me off. As an adult, I’m not enough into making music that I’d try and take lessons because money’s always been too tight and I’d rather use what extra money I have for something else. I’ve never felt not being able to play an instrument is a huge loss or anything like that.