I getting up on 300 days of sickeness allowance at the end of this month (300 days is the maximum; after that one has be fit for work for at least a year to re-qualify again for the same illness) because of my migraines.

So now I’m applying for disability pension/temporary disability pension now. I never thought until a couple of years ago I’d ever have to do that this young (I’m 43). Disability pension has become notoriously hard to be approved for the last decade or so, propably tens of thousands of people are kept on unemployment despite them, their doctors and the unemployment agency knowing full well that they are not able to work. But insurance doctors think otherwise, without ever seeing the patient. So I’m not at all sure I’ll be approved. If not, I’ll join the ranks of people on wrong damn benefit.

It’ll take them about 2-3 months to process my application, keeping fingers crossed!

I’m not even sure I truly want to be on disability pension but that’s really the right place for me untill and unless the migraine gets a lot better (and doesn’t get worse again when trying out working or whatever). And it would be mentally much better than being on unemployment and feel like I’m not hanging in a loose noose. As long as I’m on unemployment but not able to work in reality, it’ll be stressing because you never know what the TE-toimisto will think up like unpaid work. And things have been going really badly for the unemployed (and just generally the poor) the last several years while the right wing politicians are in power, and they have still more bad changes in the pipeline for the unemployed.

But yeah, I never thought I’d be here when I was younger!